So I think I'm going to start blogging again! Yay! But I should really go finish studying for finals (which start tomorrow). Wish me luck :]

I really mean to update this more often. I really like tBLOG, except when it decides to jerk off instead of post my ... uh.. posts. grawr.
Speaking of 'grawr,' today is international speak like a pirate day. I kinda wish I had parrrrrrghticipated. Gaarrrggghhh.
^^;

So, like I was saying. I am ALWAYS BUSY it seems. I've been [basically] doing homework and studying since 4 this afternoon. And I still don't think I'm ready for my first history exam this semester ... which is tomorrow. And I hope my intro and conclusion for the speech I'm about to write is okay. And above all I hope I remember to print it out in the morning ... and remember to bring a pencil to my history exam. Gah, I'm so stressed. I have so much to do.

And I think, or atleast I'd like to think, that it's this stress that's making me want to eat nothing but french fries ... ugh. I feel so fat. And stressed. It's like an ugly circle. I wish I had the time to atleast get back to doing DDR like I did last week. That's like the best excercise for someone low on time. I'm scared to walk around my neighborhood alone, plus DDR is so much more fun, and I burn more calories. :]

A longheld friend apparently has a beef with me. I don't understand what it is, or if it even IS anything, but I wish it didn't have to be like this. I hate emotional fighting.(Now debating, that I like ;].) They're obviously pissed at me, but when I've done nothing wrong, and have also done nothing but help this friend out, I can't help but be a little offended by this. I mean, are people really that shallow and uncaring? Is something over the internet really something to get so deeply hateful about and something to end a long friendship? I would think not, but I guess some people are just affected by it in different ways. I'm personally tired of being caught up in dumb fights for no reason when I've been nothing but charitable, and of course never appreciated, to certain friends. I've decided this is the last irrelevant, one-sided fight I am to endure. And I guess it's just a loss on their part; I'm still oblivious to the whole ordeal. Why should I be angry just because someone is angry at me? It's not my problem. Taking a hint from said "friend" that this friendship is now deceased, then ... Rest In Peace, I guess.

I really mean to update. UGH.

and i just made the rest of this post which tblog decided to delete instead of post.

thanks tblog. i hate you.

 

i will finish this later when tblog is not PMSing.  

I've been tagged by kkkkkkkkkkk-chan ^_^

 

Five weird things/habits about myself:

1. I can't touch my toes >_<
2. I can't NOT laugh at a fart [I laugh easily]
3. I actually kinda like the new Paris Hilton song [let the hate ensue >_<]
4. I like my grilled cheeses burnt [and some other foods, like popcorn]
5. I sing & talk to myself in the car [I also yell obscenities at rude/oblivious drivers ... heh heh ... they'll never know ^_^]

 

uhm ... I guess I tag jafo? Has he been tagged yet? ... I don't have anyone else to tag ... So I tag jafo.

 

 

fin.

[First of all, as a little side note, if it seems like I don't reply to you comments, I actually do, I just rarely remember to click the "reply" button ]

Anyway.
So my friend/recent coworker, Courtney, and I finally got mostly moved into our house this weekend.(Hence why I haven't been around the interweb lately ^^). It's still kind of hectic since the house is old; many of the outlets need adapters, so much needed cleaning, the showers need shower heads, some of the lights need re-wiring, etc. And I've been to the grocery store 3 days in a row so far (the SAME grocery store at that) and I need to go again today because I forgot a few things I remembered I needed, and I need something to make for dinner.
I'm beginning to worry if I'll have enough money to live here. With groceries, bills, school and all that. I'm hoping it will be okay.

I have more to add, but I've got to go. So ... I might not finish this until Friday, so ... hang in there minna-san :]

I have a bag of peanut butter M&M's in the drawer next to my desk (totally unhealthy, I know). But I noticed that I seem to favor eating the blue & green ones exclusively, or maybe a yellow one every now and then. This was sparked by the observation of a sudden lack of blue and green, and even yellow candy-coated chocolate candies nestled in the bright orange bag. And once I caught myself almost subconsciously executing this behavior, I thought: "Each one of these M&M's is exactly the same, except for their color. If I ate an orange one, it would taste just the same as a blue or green one would." So I ate an orange one, and I was right. I lightly wondered why I favored those specific colors, and came to the obvious conclusion that those were my favorite colors, and thus explains my subconscious behavior. I also realized how incredibly good the combination of peanut butter and chocolate really is, when it's done right.

holy shit. lance bass is gay.

i feel like i shouldn't be surprised about that.

I don't know about other hardcore scenes in other cities (and I'd like to), but something that a few friends and I have noticed is that the scene here in the Mobile/Daphne, Alabama area is elite-est, snobby, and uneccesarily stuck up. Furthermore, I would say they express these characteristics almost more than the stereotype previously portrayed as such: the "preps."

I find this behavior quite humorous, because it seems these people are trying to be the polar opposite of the clean-cut rich kids. But in fact, most of theses "scene kids" also have a lot of money, which they use to buy close to make them look like they don't. Doesn't make sense, does it? Having a boyfriend and two good friends that work at Hot Topic, and also being a sort of "wall-flower participant," if you will, in the Mobile "scene," I personally can't imagine spending the the kind of money required by the price tag on some of these clothes, shoes and asscesories that all these "scene" girls (and boys) wear. Unless, of course, my boyfriend buys it with his discount, or it goes on clearance .

I recently gave my friend a book I also own called "108 Things To Do With a T-Shirt" for her birthday. And for under $5, we each made a skirt out of old t-shirts we had, and ones we'd bought from local thrift and Goodwill stores. Now from what I remember, the whole "punk/hardcore" thing used to be much more resourceful; taking old clothes and cutting them up here and there, tearing holes in panty-hose and finding used, worn-down boots at the thrift store. But now you can just buy all that stuff for a grotesque amount of money at a specialty store, compared to doing it the "old-fashioned way."

But going back the whole attitude problem with today's local scene; if you happened to be bored one day, and also on myspace, take a look through different profiles of various scene kids. You'll probably find self-proclamations such as "I rock" and "I can get down," signifying the idea that he/she (it's usually a girl thing) is better than the average person. And what makes them better? I can't really think of anything. Can you?

I've never thought of myself as someone part of the "scene," although I do admire and own some of the (cheaper) clothing styles. I can't really think of any stereotype that I really fall into. I guess that's a good thing, but it sometimes makes finding friends harder. I kind of wish I *was* part of some group every now and then. But right now I have friends from every category, and all-around I guess that's a better deal. Lately I've been pioneering the idea of being comfortable with who I am: what I look like, where I live, where I work, who my friends are, how I act, etc. And it is something quite difficult to fully abide by.

I guess the whole moral to this story is to stop being stuck up all the time. You're not that great. Be down to earth and be yourself and be happy with what you have and what you get. It makes life a lot easier and more pleasant. Imagine that.
ja ne

I really want August 17th to come. My friends and I are going to see Dragonforce + Between the Buried & Me in New Orleans, then stay the night and go shopping the next day. But on the other hand, 4 days later I have to start school again. Bah.

My schedule rocks this semester. And I get to live with a friend/present coworker of mine at an older house of ours instead of the stupid dorms.

I'm just hoping I can get back in the swing of studying and doing homework on top of reports and essays and art projects again.

I applied for a job @ Beaner's, another coffee shop, that's closer to where I'll be living AND school. PLUS: I get to dye my hair funky colors. Talk about the perfect job for me, right? I just really hope I get it so I can quit Barnie's when it turns into Starbucks. I'm still trying to decide whether or not I shouhld go through the training process first before I quit. According to Starbucks, if I *DO* quit before training, I lose my opportunity to ever be hired by Starbucks again. Sounds ludicrous, doesn't it? I'll get paid less @ Beaner's, but I'm making so much money having two jobs right now that it won't really be hurting me too much. And I'll still be getting discount coffee, which was a major drain on my income before working for Barnie's


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